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1 Jan 97
    My head passing through the pink blossoms. Choruses of joyous disdain erupt in circles everywhere.
Clouds of crackling light approach, strike and pass over me.  Old man in shabby voice inquires my desires. Gazes
at my silent look. Nods. Gutters discharge mourning like bleeding trees. I am only a faceless head floating over a
convex golden sea. Comets pierce random sea creatures, expressing the oil of tomorrow onto the beach of
yesterday. The net of measurement drags me down to meet the shining surface. I melt and become the sea-stuff,
the land-stuff, the sky-stuff, the world-stuff. I am this world. Am still. Memory is of now. Each feathering edge
meets itself as its other self. My exterior is within its interior. Each tick of the present is the only tick. Time is always.
Ear, eye, touch, thought leap as one. I experience the other universes. The emperor of each lives his petty will
earnestly sculpting the vanishing circle of objects and events. A setting up of pins to knock down. A wrapping of
anxiety in expectation of loss of nothing and in hope of acquisition of nothing by nothing. I shed a particle of
myself into this "ruler". There is so much to do, so many affairs to manage, so many enemies who would take it all.
The armies must be sent out for new land and goods. The people must pay to keep it going, the people must be
controlled.

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Who were we when the
          apples ate the sky?
Where was the grasping
    grammar of twilight?
When did the eventual
    inquiry evaporate?
How was it that corners
    translated regrets?
Near what honesty waddled
    paper terrorist monkeys?
Never shade a gossiping
    tree with its own rumor.
Four lazy riddles moistened
    learning farces at once.

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We are the dreamers.
dreaming we are kings in our palaces
dreaming we are bums in our gutters
celebrities basking in limelight
reformers and revolutionizers
waiting or strutting and stamping up and down
to change the changeless changing
to manage the chaos of order
or to float on the tiny tide
sweeping the local universe.
We are all saints, scientists and artists
daily demonstrating our magic
and pretending it's not us.
The game is "Let's Pretend!"
We are the warriors, raping, torturing and pillaging.
We are the raped, the tortured, the pillage.
We tenderly caress the pretty child
and lust after virgins and mothers.
We hammer out the instruments of war,
Cut the crooked deals that run to power,
Finance both sides of a conflict
And rake in the "profits"
While we bury the prophets and critics.

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Proceed!
Who goes there?
You with the wrinkled eyes,
Cruising the root-tops.

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Stand and receive your blessing.
We're all blessed, there is nothing but blessing all around.
Even your blindness and fleeing are blessed.

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car, a heartbeat of summer
no tangle of tombstones
weed standing through slab
periscope punctured of sleeves
invoking a final razzle-dazzle
only the insane can unravel
spirit broken on rocks of quiescence
merging toward a slug of rattlesnakes
pausing the legends of daily life
we are bubbling out of the fountain of life
cast adrift in the brain forest

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I make no sense, do I.
Like the sparrow chirping
Perched on the iron fence
And the seedy dandelion,
Reaching its own end.
There seeps my genius,
Spilled in the sands.

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I see and hear what I see and hear,
    and have my opinion,
    And don't see and hear what I don't.
I don't, and don't have to
   Experience everything
       or be everybody.

But if I occasionally glimpse/behold
      the infinite source of all
      breathing the infinitesimal result,
      I would seem to be among
      the most fortunate of
      creatures/beings.

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3 October 2001

Man teetering on the stink of exbrinction
      (or  if you like, the brink of extinction)
Does not see his true enemy
      lurking deep within,
Which repeatedly tells him:
     "Let's you and him fight and destroy each other.",
But is only aware of
    The latest end of the world
Trade Center.

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Black fly on its back struggling from time to time against the gray smooth table.
Chips and Coke and scandal sheet compete with the plaintiff's protest, which ends.

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The world is my mirror: I see myself everywhere.

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9 Sept. 98

It is a sad thing to have lived a life and never to have found out what one's purpose for being alive is or to have
even begun to fulfill it.

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5 March 2002

It was the only day of my life, so I decided to make it a good one.

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If anyone seize this
      they will know the art of discovery
Begun so many nevers ago.

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Microcomic/Microcaustic Dog

Old puppy masterfully embarking up double tree
  tripping speedily blurlegs laughing tail
Next hard-wired scent seeker
Closed circuit obstacle dodger
Slaver tongue with bio-sonar
Food tube toy of living curiosity
Connecting all directions browser
Charging discharging sparks be-doing.

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Great hand touch face
Face shines within/without
Never/now flash
Aged hummm
Bloom to bloom
Polish the day untrying
Gaze in as out, out as in.
Gasp last first
Mind filtered life.

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  21march2k--
   .......words lead to words in the cowering vendetta of manners
  and matters forced to matriculate late when eventual scimitars of
  larceny moved morbid comments or muscling aptitudes closing all
  arguments in the country like posing poultry waiting for the Nobel
  Peace Prize like little kaisers mortified by nonchalance and wasting
  precious ideas to reach irrational goals before panic attacks
  polarize more breakfast cereals after blast, cannon-fire taxes the
  nerves of inanimate committees charged with keeping the pace of
  egress within discreet bounds for more than thirty decades of
  anonymous clap-trap now that we are delegated to the partition of
  the last meager wisps of elegance by condemnational intricacies
  woven from listless databases mortgaged up with paper tricks after
  elemental coronas bloom in the corners of mastery which doesn't in
  any way illuminate the plausibility that the new station requires
  transubstantiation for any stability to occur once the shafts of
  blight slide from under the anticipated luxury donors gathered to
  salivate with uncoupled teeth the freshest frauds manageable under
  the arrangements of the international tribunal of pocket scientists
  meeting over brunch at the Highest Hotel and Casino in Tibet while
  nervous investors picket mini-baseball concessions for want of
  nothing worse to do without gathering moss on their pelts like
  some old rocky impediment to fusion never before solicited for daily
  input to the universal library of depth and tradition which voluntarily
  accedes to momentary mourning for reasonably deprived ant sisters not
  alone in their briefing on the notable volley of choices facing
  outright temptation like little-lord-what's-his-name who fell off
  the bar stool onto a glittering mass of electronic splatter intended
  to coalesce the subtle patterns of mass in the unified field on the
  north forty after which (which?) a steady flow of refugees captured
  the lofty citadel of the assassins and made it a wax museum later
  transported to Hollywood at five dollars a head and so killed every
  chance for elephant dreams to reach fruition without over-the-counter
  medication and prescription antiques, half betting on melting candles
  to usher in the old billennium of leaf-breathing dragons saddled up
  for a romp in debit valley for limited shadows that parrot infinity
  on closed circuit commerce without the slightest chance of reviving
  the prickly menace or placid paranormality pretending there is
  some yesterday or tomorrow leaning on us for a loan or a bone-
  shattering slag-heap straining to be heard over a misunderstood
  word intuitively proscribed by smells discovered in excavations on
  the asian peninsula by groups of hardy sand farmers to be merely
  interrogation inhibitors and appetite suppressants due for an
  overhaul necessitated by omitted sentries on the great wall of
  Chinese forgiveness if wondering minuets give the sign for instant
  relief of formative symptoms not previously promised to jughead
  wrestlers between bouts rehabilitating their tired pineal glands
  once the crowd dispersed in a value heap that no monitor welcomed
  until foraging forest creatures cast heavy glances at the space
  between the drawn-up sides yearning for the best seats behind the
  pole of India recuperating from too much irrational slopes neither
  sweet nor sour but tasting of thick flat paint layered with buckshot
  waves practically fitted to turkey neck fruit only much looser so
  that rejected jail cells transfer ability certificates to inner
  back rooms with back seats in plush velvet painted with mosaic-


 
  like designs reminding one of alabaster wrist watches leaking
  mustard in the thin atmosphere of a frontier settlement on a
  planet not listed in the intergalactic guidebook and keeping time
  for other systems which makes scheduling difficult for those without
  a seventeenth sense rarely found among pioneers since the earliest
  wanderers emerged from golden eggs laid by for rainy Sundays and
  lazy forenoons to ease into projects annotated in insinuated
  tongues for security purposes although no enemies were visible
  across the horizon perfectly positioned for capacious puzzles at
  least matching efforts to terminals with links twisted and tangled
  like never-combed hair or loosed upon the frenzied mobs screaming
  for bread and blood as if all the half-baked vampires were belched
  up in one place to avenge little blessings doled out by wheelbarrows
  of monastic monarchy living as one another to disguise the source
  of granular permutations that might influence former candidates to
  abandon prospective ambitions not those expected by uncommon parsons
  dispersing the goof news of celestial infiltration from the
  backwaters of temerity deciding whether the current focus would have
  been proximity fused within porcupine parameters neither enhancement
  having any bearing on monetary motions in the vast containment market
  obviously inherited from pocket investments arranged upon revelation
  of a weird scandal involving tourist misinformation stolen by the
  rearguard of a pygmy rebellion afterwards characterized as a company
  picnic for analytical chemists boasting of the latest breakthrough
  in butterfly fuel research instead of quietly vowing to scale back
  any previous fishing excursions to suit your mother's feeble aunt
  while the tapered conquest roars through the valley and rattles the
  windows in the fourth county over the heathery hill like a liquid 
  moon over onyx waters crisply chattering a money mantra for eager
  equality notified too late to pet graduate dolphins or lead blind
  billy goats to laughter as a flesh weakener or pearl extractor
  juice seeping into locker room panels like evening silence falls
  on party fleeing kangaroos unless amazement enables eager disasters
  more often than early environment cuts bereavement from lasting
  insults lonesomely prepared by retired boy scouts from resorts
  consisting of a thousand islands worth of condiments after a
  valentine raid and a solid shower of ballistics computations filtered
  through prehistoric book reviews proposing the speedy accession of
  fred the ungrateful who in other parts was an abused car salesman
  pretending to offer the final solution to every tenth or so problems
  unfaced by the hominid bunch well known throughout the atom as
  methodical morons freely distracted until models of epiphanous perils
  appease mortality or the hub of rational praise is compared to
  transferred ordnance warehouses on a virtual scale of won to team
  partners underloaded and undersigned on no empty passages of vacated
  parsimony no one remembers as too bestial for elevated discussion on
  streetwise tactics and a gleeful slice of marketable dissension might
  occasionally pretend to royal status or preserve solemn reputations
  for constant carnival insiders marching on the growers that buy new
  seeds every millennium to grace their tombs of roasted marbles
  usually horrified at portraits and portents of cashmere insulation
  forged by itinerant cowboys riding dune buggies over the cabbage patch
  like an army storming the last hill mentioned in the story books
  quickly massaged into children's brains from behind shimmering glass


  and remotely engineered by neophyte comedians in spite of global
  cooling caused by pre-scientific tv interviews on panic channels
  a distant cousin in wayfaring development through future mythology
  as a foster child of forty wise snails in golden armor riding
  saurus horses for dainty premonitions of geologic upheavals
  protected from preprogrammed logic analysis by later versions of
  starlit scriptures tied into gorgeous knots with petrified noodles
  peeking out like shy homilies wasted on emerald-filled ears trained
  to mend lost continents with super glue making such hospitals
  unnecessary to pave gardens never broached in plain talk discussions
  because the bell clicked waveringly out of the blue box of plaster
  saints now on display at the ornery museum until the end of the war
  with good sense which has taken on a death of its own in the waning
  months of the trillennium dozing with the vanguard thinkers willing
  for tempests to clear out malignant populations making room for
  party domes and double billing for more than requested generous
  feats of length barely seen through myopic kaleidoscopes barricaded
  in abandoned sewage tunnels during the long unawaited market
  positioning added to the realism of mental challenges packing air
  freight in brief gusts of familiarity incorporated with concepts
  unconvinced by parallel time tricks not usually apprehended for loot
  on holy days created within maximum memory by surf drivers resolving
  to invest their wind slick in poster colors like elkbone red in time
  for the world bank to alienate sun rays with snide comments about
  solar eminence in relation to the goon in the moon full of trance
  weaving into nutritious portability with taped shut broadcasting
  easy notations resolving breakage into faceted promises giving
  no argument to lean on while raising questions of minor purport
  to generations of celestial refugees retrained and cross-trained
  in  nominal explication by the finest couch potatoes half-baked in
  their skins in technical terms without oppressing the massive
  conundrum unresolved in seance after seance not to mention the
  persistent chirp of birds and the roar unceasing of humankind
  sputtering toward some idol dream or night panic button enveloped
  in waxen starlight mixed with beaten egg white never pretending
  to be baffled by feathers of ecstasy in numbers of deliverance
  obedient to faded iron laws practically elevated within anatomical
  echoes which will satisfy a gentle turmoil of seeded blood wanting
  available sunlight to vilify nobodies for their participation in
  waiting for to go to be earnest in principle and policy when only
  fruits loom large on the polished morions like manicured entrails
  writhing upon the slab of maple physically disintegrated under
  elegant shaker furniture before nasty smells permeate the confessional cubicle causing squirming notions in deep pockets of persistance that heretofore went ballistic over jello planets while old
  panes of radiation fanned the overheated spinestem unless patriots
  elbowed their way out of class on a bright spring morning preferred
  outside elements instead of square wheels streamlined for relaxed
  stress beating around the shrubbery for answers to ape-old answers
  to ale-mold questions complaining to departments of inferiors
  not wasted twice at unlocked chasms of meridian choppers who lead
  movements over cliffs of pondering magic knowing as they must what
  quantific consequences alleviate symptoms of quarantine cloning
  now that talk radio relents and keeps an ear to the microphone
  as a concession to world wonder easily twisted brown cowhide text


  for easy approaches to malicious incidents as a classic trace of 
  manicured essentials traditionally untouched in the public scriptures
  for major division by twin porridge ladles expertly translated into
  the mother's dung ordinarily delegated to newly fashioned tuition
  buyers rather mature in their polka-dot pajamas after a hard work's
  day at the orifice including pickle creeping with a team of brained
  wheels in the role of avengers celebrating near mastery of dream
  squeezing without promotion as hundreds of civilizations collaborate
  on error-building technology in a manner reminiscent of cork
  powered tricycle gears noisily waiting for the next line to step
  over in anguish of emotional tiptoe wary of air mines swooping
  after portions of dejection nowhere than pigeon frivolity newly
  reformed by slide rule mnemonics rather than digitoid para-economics
  malpracticed by the jokers of happy valley funny farm like regurgitated
  aptitudes cleverly bundled with pallid platitudes for easy
  dissimulation which in practical terms means evidence for idea
  pollution is lagging behind elective legislation advanced by disturbed
  monkey tamers so that salaries invented through stage magic encircled
  by albino crows carrying hollow signs as a project waiving piecrust
  sentries or nickel-plated relics of the industrious revolution not
  wanting peaceful slopes in the brow of atlantis my cousin predicted
  weeks ago that flamingos and roadrunners are rivals for hot and cold
  relief programs returning emblems of chicanery to each faulty tomato
  pursuer left in church so many nights of fancy living that warrant
  further inspection to determine eligibility for schedules outside the
  power parameters only to sneak after lost dollars for endless carpets
  presented in three dimensions with skinny spaghetti frills lining the
  phrastic entreaty by smoking monologue in less time than groups of
  oysters palpitate the human genome most assuredly accompanied by
  long lasting predators weakened by every process of perception which
  portended annual orchestral truncation hardly a nominee for playing
  first banjo in the heavenly symphony free of elastic terminals
  levering positions to pillage privilege out of expensive social
  nerve centers not only for ambitious protection but as well for limp
  salutations measured out in gallon tasks on a pretext of worn costumes
  badly fitting until the mountaineering/flying lessons are cancelled by
  imperial decree fortified with chocolate dipped lasers mounted on
  weary camels which dance to recitations of Hegel in the original gilt
  frame held up with helium balloons and held down by sandbags while
  elegant manicurists gobble pizza before it and chase after knobby-
  headed penitents scattering mild oats for sometime breakfast reunions
  after stale popcorn went out of fashion in the monasteries of
  prehistoric Finland